Unfinished Post From 2/28/08: The Cycles of the Moon and My Life

As a young woman, I have many responsibilities. Most of them i ignore, or treat irresponsibly. I wish it were different, but I'm bad at dealing with things, and I hope that, over time, I can get better. However, for now, I must just deal with (or continue to ignore) the consequences of my irresponsibilty.
So, as a woman, I also need to deal with getting my period once a month, like all other women all over the world. That connection with all other ladies does not make it any better though. So I guess I need to accept that there is always the posibility of getting pregnant. Only once in a blue moon does this possiblity actually turn into a real fear, one that can only consume your whole being and turn every though into "what if...".
This past month, I went back on birth control after taking an absence of a year and much debate, and in my haste and happiness of a condom-free life, I skimmed the guidlines for starting new bc. Bluntly, I knew I was supposed to wait at least a week before having unprotected sex, and I probably waited two days. Bad, I know. This week, the white pills came, and I was worried immediatley since I didn't get my period right away. I am also very close with my cycle and know all of my symptoms and pre-menstrual warning signs, which are usually pretty abundant. When I didn't have any of these normal symptoms, I got really upset.

My New (old) Jeans

So, I recently won a pair of vintage guess jeans from the late 80's on ebay, in an extreme stroke of luck. The jeans are very high waisted, forest green and well tapered. This is my first pair of guess' and boy, do I love them! The fit is great, especially the high waist, which I am pretty into right now, and the 90's butt effect that they give and I love. Here are a few pictures of the first outfit, which featured a tiny white tank from Ted. (I apologize for the photo-booth pics, but my digital camera just broke)


I think that the high waisted jean of the 90's is so great for women and I'd like to see a return to that style and am pushing for it in my own look.

Highly fitted high waisted jeans like my guess' really make me feel sexier in a very controlled and sophisticated way. They make me carry myself better and walk with more authority. At least they make me feel like I do, and that's a good thing. I think all the clothes that I wear should be a confidence booster, and this will be my newest goal in dressing myself!

Some Things I Made

So, for valentine's day, I ended up baking a vegan red velvet cake for me and my two favorite valentine's to enjoy.
I also made cards with my mask stencils on wallpaper with spraypaint.
Here are some:



I wrote personal messages to each of the recipients about how special they are to me on the back.

So, all in all, Valentine's Day ended up being fine, I got a bit of work done in the litho studio and also got an unexpected visit from the wizard thanks to my roommate. Nothing too profound happened, but I did stay up quite late talking to the previously mentioned two valentines, which was really nice.
Overall, I feel good about my life, my work, my friends, and my future. So that is nice.

Knitknitknitknitknit

My interest in knitting has recently re-emerged with full force. Fueled by a mask project that I am working on for a new media installation studio (which I will at some point get more into) I started doing research on fiber arts and also groundbreaking knits in fashion. Here are some of the wonderful things that I found:


Some late 90's knitwear by Yohji Yamamoto. I love the asymmetrical sweaters and all the loose layers of knit with one fitted piece over them.


Weird gloves and a four-way sweater by Freddie Robbins.

"Blonde, brunette, and red-head" hair dresses by Emily Bates.



Great works by Ed Rossbach.

So after looking at these pieces as well as some other images, I feel pretty inspired to work on my own project and look at knitting from a different perspective, which is exciting!

Tomorrow is V-day

Tomorrow is February 14, 2008, which is the day that we Americans will celebrate (or curse) St. Valentine's Day.
I don't know very much about Valentine's Day, and have never celebrated it or really cared about it. However, for some reason I am kind of curious about it this year, so I did a little research, which of course means I wikipedia'ed it.
Some facts that interested me:
-There are numerous Christian martyrs namd Valentine that the day is honering.
-Chaucer basically started the whole thing in one of his stories with a misinterpretted reference to one of the Saints Valentine and some mating birds.
-The first Valentine in America was created by Esther Howland in 1847, after she got one from a Brit.
-Valentine's day like we know it is pretty much ony celebrated in the west; the rest of the world has their own similar holidays throughout the year.

So even though I learned some stuff, I'm still not sure what I'm going to do for Valentine's day yet. I suppose that I have a valentine for myself. Although it bums me out to realize that this is now the second v-day that I will be wondering about my relationship and standing with said valentine. I'm going to make him something, and this year I will actually give it to him. I think I know for sure what one part of my val's gift is going to be, and no matter what it will be mostly a gesture of kindness and respect for him.

Love is what I'm still not sure about. Not sure whether it exists (in my situation that is) and whether it's appropriate to admit at this point or not. I hate wondering those things, but it is a part of my life, and I either ignore it and repress my questioning or deal with it. So I guess I'll just see what happens tomorrow and in the end, what will be will be. Right?!

Hello

I feel like an idiot creating my first post on my new blog, but oh well, here it is.

Let the shit-storm start.